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They say “Those who do not learn their history are doomed to repeat it.” Well, I’ve been to this point in my life far too many times before, I think of it sorta like a cross roads. Whichever path I take however, is right. Right meaning that it would not be a wrong choice for me to make. All you can do is keep an open mind, and yet at the same time its my open mindedness that will not allow me to make a solid affirmation. I think this philosophy class is getting to me @_@ I definitely admit that I think more than I used to, and my dog barking right now is not helping me concentrate. At the same time I know that hitting her wont help, but I dont necessarily have the time to go play with her. Well, maybe I do, if I were to not be here writing this note. Hm….. I wonder if anyone else has felt this way before? Me, I am an underachiever, I know a lot more than I should, probably more than a lot of people and if not I can sure has hell figure something out better than others. The fact that I set my goals so high, yet have such a low motivation to do anything is such a contradicting thought. You cannot begin to fathom the amount of times Ive been either depressed, happy, or just dont really care for most things. For the most part I like being happy, I like having the time of my life, seeing what I wanna do and doing it. But sometimes I ask myself whats the point. So now Im asking my self why? Why is that not the point? All of us want to know (maybe not now, maybe they learned already, maybe they just dont care) the meaning of life. Why are we here as a whole, better yet, why are we here as a singularity. What makes each one of us different and special? All these amazing questions, at one point I thought were stupid, but they are not. Why? Why?? WHY?! Why not? Why not do things, just to do them? If you know the results and they are good, then do it. If you know the results will bad, why not try and see if it has the potential to be good? If you dont know the results at all, then do it, find it, live it, learn it. Whats the worst that could happen? You learn something new? Hm… In philosophy there is never a stupid question, there is never a stupid answer. I think of it as, this is a misplaced question, or I have not found the answer yet, but I know what not to do. They ask an age old question, what is truth? Well I have an answer for that, truth is what you want it to be. Its what you believe, of course, setting this aside from factual truth. But, if you have a question that you just dont know, question it. Question it until you pick a side, but keep in mind other options. Well I feel that I answered a lot of things hazing my mind, and hopefully there will be more to come.